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good morning, lain! yeah yeah, i know. we'll talk about that later ;)
classes! are coming to an end. I'm pretty satisfied with my classes this semester, and im sad that I'm not taking anymore dandrow classes! >.< (best history prof everrr) it was my favorite, and hardest class. hated it but his papers were a well needed refresher. No one made me write like that since SCHEMER!!! aw man, i miss her too. crazy old lady =)
i've decided to kick my ass for the next 2 years. i want to murder the GRE's and have people paying me to go to top-notch grad schools. i was too lazy towards the end of highschool and did not take advantage of everything that was there >.< not this time thou' (don't I always say that?)
so that just means raping a GRE study book, annd reading. alot. Now that I'm done with assigned readings, I can get to other stuff. I want to read this short 100page play, The Taming of The Shrew which Kay(![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) dazedream) recommended back in highschool, but of course I never complied, lol. I read the first few pages though and def like it so far, so I'll do that next ^_^. then a bunch of existentialist readings which Tony(elg3cko) needs to write questions for =O.
oh, and of course a shit load of manga. That's the only thing i DO read, and in short, but exceedingly prolific bursts. I haven't had one since winter break, so it's about that time. you know the damn card!
and, of course, guitar. I still want to join the jazz ensemble here... Shit, UCF has a really sweet music program and I should take advantage of that as well xD. but theres no way im taking all the classes they want me to take. fuck 'em all, they're bitches.
so my plan is to get mad good and then that's all I need, right? I'm already halfway there, I think (in terms of what they want). They want a jazz rhythm guitarist which means reading a lot of quick chord changes and some comping (which i wanna get mad good at!). I just suck at reading music! dur gotta practice.
I really wanna work on this rock opera based on steven(cr4sh_0verride)'s cat (named Kitty...least in this house!). It's about her wet-food addiction. I haven't felt any creative drive coming out of songwriting in foreverr. It's been channeled into other guitar shit, but it's time to make it all come together! I've decided to write the story first though, so that way I have a basis to work off (cause i suck at writing lyrics off the top of my head >.<). I'll post that later =)
that's about it. budget cuts are a bitch. What's gonna happen, UCF?
im hungry. we need roommates >.<
3 finals left! which includes 2 papers x_x home by the 4th, right in time for jazz night ^_^
first summer I'm gonna spend away from the miami crib. Totally gonna tan naked on the roof. Fuck yeah to living in the woods ^_^.
okay okay, so I should probably start some sort of school related work. steven's finally awake, so thats my cue to be productive (and smoke...which is counterproductive?)
join us next time where I explain my 30 rock obsession, and why steven is a janitor xD.
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| talking in my sleep, again. |
[18 Jan 2008|06:48am] |
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my arm is empty.
"It’s so easy to be a human being and be stuck in the past, just as easy as it is to be concerned with the future. It’s such a waste of time."
"Sometimes you don’t understand the results of (your decisions) or the results are different from your expectations but, in the end, they are always pure because you were practicing a form of instinctual irrational expression. That, to me is the most sacred part of the mind. That’s the part we’re not using as a part of our waking life. That is the part that is only open when we are dreaming."
*yawn* three-dimensional spacetime is so boring. I can just barely steal a whiff of what lies beneath; curved and twisted into so many intricacies. it's because these handcuffs hurt too much.
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| charlie parker is god. |
[09 Dec 2007|09:28am] |
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Lain, there's a million things to say yet conventional words could only cover but a tenth of its magnitude. My first step through this ideological institution of self-awareness has come to an end, and I'd like to think it was a rather successful landing. Balancing it out will be fun but my time is limited. Much awaits in the distance; the burning coals of maturation and insight know no quarter, though I plan to keep my mind in the air. On some plane of existence I'm following a variable line to my destination much like traveling through the highway with many possible paths. Is life in the 4th dimension a state function? Do any of my actions and decisions really change much in the end? Does that door at the end lead to the same place for us all? Does the notion of something deeper change the equation? stupid chemistry. lol, I always connect everything I learn to something central. Like the many tentacles of an octopus, its camouflage hides the head of the whole operation. I guess that's what makes me the most happy; everything just makes sense at one point. Even if you can't explain it, you can feel it. so I guess I can't wait for my 2nd step to begin; more rubbish to rummage through. Total understanding; complete awareness; self-actualization; enlightenment. Buddhism tells us we can all reach such a serene state; there lies a buddha in all of us hiding in the murky, chaotic waters. There is a sort of elegance in the chaos. A phrase of intelligence and feeling amongst nonsense. I believe that's what makes our branch of evolution so amazing; the ability to recognize and interpret that elegance. To walk on water is truly an amazing feat as it shows a deeper understanding of what lies beneath; the attainment of jesus status. The written word is truly one of mans greatest accomplishments, yet it is not the only language which can transcend spacetime. I've been listening to a lot of jazz lately; bebop mostly. It's basically where the music being written was no longer being written for a purpose (such as dancing), but just to exist. Art for arts sake. The music was getting very complex as well; true insight into its inner workings was required to improvise on such a scale of depth. Someones interpretation of that language creates a bridge out of a string of notes; something to cross over the water with. As island universes we may not be able to share experiences, but their products hold the framework for much potential. It's only wise to tap into such potential; to slowly mold the masterpiece while having a model here and there.
And so, I keep my mind in the air. It would be foolish to limit the number of mediums through which I can travel. Heh, I can't help but be reminded of the lost woods in Zelda 64. Running around like a fool through a seemingly endless puzzle until you realize your eyes are useless and that your ears hold the key.
"Once when Kerouac was high on psychedelics with Timothy Leary, he looked out the window and said, 'Walking on water wasn't built in a day.' Our goal was to save the planet and alter human consciousness. That will take a long time, if it happens at all." - Allen Ginsberg
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[03 Aug 2007|12:10pm] |
Going to the Ueno zoo today to see pandas! and probably hitting up tokyo tower.
I mostly updated today to say I uploaded more pics, so check it out! I`ll definitely upload the bulk of them once I get home, or maybe even sooner =0.
Ja ne for now!
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| nihon! |
[01 Aug 2007|05:48pm] |
To simply put it, I`m in love with Japan. Best thing ever.
Even the mousepad im using has cool stuff on it -
"What did I dream?
I do not know:
The fragments fly like chaff.
Yet, strange, my min was tickled so
I cannot help but laugh."
Come on, when a fucking mousepad tells you that...
oh, and the women here are beyond cute. I`m loving asians now than I love white girls! ahh, nihon nihon
http://s210.photobucket.com/albums/bb314/Snip3rEX/
the pics so far!
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| The sun is shinning |
[21 Mar 2007|02:02am] |
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Ohayo Lain!
Happy Vernal Equniox!
alright, so what did you guys get me?
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[20 Mar 2007|01:02am] |
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I see a crossroads coming up soon, but whatever. All feels well at the moment.
night, lain!
=D
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| smack her wit a dick smack her wit a dick! |
[17 Mar 2007|03:36am] |
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Laain-chan.
Man, I had soo much to do today, didn't do SHIT! Fuckin knocked out, slept half of my day. I really hate that. I need to install some electrical buzzer into my brain that wakes me up after 10-15mins of sleep. Naturally if I plan on sleeping, then I'll turn off the device, but other than that it'll be on! No more wasted days.
Now, I seriously need to devote my tomorrow to understanding economics. Fuck reading the chapters, I'll just go over keyterms. Test monday >.<. enviro can fuckin wait. I need to ace that one too though, so ritchie can shut the fuck up.
Didn't do much of anything the rest of the day. Diyah had me distracted most of the time I was awake. I should seriously consider not going online one of these days, but I can't help it! Being online and checking my buddy list is like being home. I'm never truly home until I have done that. I've grown too attached to this digital world, even if it isn't as bad as it used to be. I need me a couple of days, or weeks, awaay. In the woods, country, or something. Definitely away from civilization. I'd even have my phone off (another addiction of mine, can't leave the house without my phone!). Sofia wants to go camping, and if she's dead serious, then im all up for ittt. I just wanna go somewhere where light pollution is a minimum, get a nice view of the stars. I could stare at them all night.
Berny came over, played some strikers. I took back my well deserved title, with ass-whooping after ass-whooping. It was fun ^_^. Then we had a blast from the fucking past, I was showing him a bunch of pictures and videos from like 7th-8th grade. I had seem them before, but apparently I didn't catch all of them and oh man. Some of that shit was just soooo fucking funny. We were just fucking idiots, such jits, but it was soo damn funny.
memories, man. memories.
Good laughs and shit. Nothing beats that.
Tomorrow (or today, since im up so fuckin late again)shall be devoted to studying. Yes yes, I know. I've said it a million times before, but for real this time! I'm gonna try and avoid the internet world. So don't distract, bitches!
Oh yeah, I'll be jamming tomorrow morning, so I gotta wake up early...straight.
Sunday I'm off again to Orlando to drop off the goat. Yasmin be joinin us for the trippp, so I won't be alone on the ride back. Should be interesting on to how that turns out. Gone at 11am, and back at 7pm. Well then again I said that last time XD. Nah, I gotta be back, been missin too much school.
I realized yesterday that I just might say the word "fuck" too much. Ah, fuck it. who cares >.>
*flop*
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ohayo lain. Yesterday was pretty awesome. Hung out with lessums and kevins. Got some deeelicious Jamba Juice, then went to Bodies! Quite worth the $25 if I say so myself. Lol I kinda annoyed them though, since I wanted to read every single little thing. Well hell, I paid 25 bucks, I might as well get the full experience >.>. It was basically a huge anatomy lesson, cool stuff. Freaky too. The fetuses were the best! So cool. everything was pretty much awesome. I actually want to go again, but I'm not willing to down another $25. It ends next sunday though, so eh.
We also got funky in nike town.
Would've ate for free at Cheeseburger In Paradise! If only I remembered, dargh. Oh well. Got wing zone instead! WING ZONE! they need one by the crib, those delicious ass fucking wings. Leslie and Kevin learnt the awesomeness of the wings.
Followed by a lazy ride back home.
Finally met Kevin's brother! wow, looks just like him! So alike, so alike. Was kinda scary actually, but all good. Seems like a good man.
Met up with the russian rocket. The night was a cloudy one, both in the atmosphere and in our lungs. Good times though. Left me a bit lazy this morning though.
Woke up kinda early (round 9am) to jam. Eli never made it, but John and I had a good sesh regardless. Good debates too.
Now, after my daily kay chat, I'm gonna to force some economics and enviro down my throat. I'm too lazy, man. I fucked up this quarter soo badd. Didn't give a shit. Now I gotta wake up for this last one >.>
Whatever, I'm already accepted to UCF.
6 months o.o
*gone*
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